Blog 58–How are you doing reflective blog part II. What is the hardest part of social isolation?
It hasn’t really hit me yet that senior year is over for good. It’s not just that this year is over, but high school is over for good which is a huge bummer. I’m really upset that I won’t get to say goodbye to my teachers or peers. Chances are I’ll see some people during the summer once this quarantine stuff is over, but a lot of people I won’t. I wish I knew my last day at Washington-Liberty was the last. I miss being in the classroom and I miss GP. The only reason I’ve ever been okay with school and all the work we have is that I got to see my friends and teachers every day. Now all I have is hours of pointless work to do alone in my room. I miss people a lot.
It’s been hard for me to be optimistic about really anything lately. There is so much uncertainty about grading and senior experience. I don’t even know when we’ll all be allowed outside again. I have very little motivation to complete assignments because I don’t see the point. I don’t particularly care about physics class or Spanish class so why do I still have to do work for the classes. This is a whole other level of senioritis. I feel bad saying that, but the truth is I just want to spend my time on things that I care about. Luckily, I still care about philosophy though!
I’ve also been trying to fill out all these forms for government background checks for my FEMA internship. It is a whole new level of tediousness and torture typing every little detail about my past. I’m hopefully going to be working with the FEMA office of external affairs and doing communications work for my senior experience. I’ve recieved the tentative internship offer, but it’s not official yet. It’s hard to balance my FEMA work with my school work. However, I guess teachers assume that all I have right now is schoolwork.
The hardest part of isolation is looking on the bright side. Being stuck inside with literally nothing to do but chores and homework can get depressing. Obviously though, I know I am extremely privileged to be in the position I am. I am healthy, I have food to eat, and solid wifi. There are so many people who have it so much worse. However, this all still seems kind of shitty. Being a very hyper and outgoing person, social isolation has proven to be very difficult. I just never expected this to happen and I don’t particularly like it, but there’s nothing I can do.